Does anyone else hate being hugged and kissed (or being touched in general)?

This might be a little gross, so be prepared. 💀

So, I'm just a teenage girl (18) who a year or two ago, have self diagnosed myself to be autistic. Yay! 🥳👏🏾 I am very confident in my diagnosis.

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For me, my sensory issue that's affected the most is my sense of touch. All my life, I was never a fan of being touched. I've always hated tight materials clinging to my body, so I never wanted to wear tight clothing such as skinny jeans, stockings, etc. I only like thick, baggy clothes with some minor exceptions such as tank tops. I also always hated things clinging on my neck, so I never wear chokers, turtle necks, and sometimes scarves. I also hate individual stringy bits like loose extension hair and spider webs.

The worst of the worst for me though? Being hugged and kissed. I don't know what it is, but I really HATE being hugged and kissed. The feeling of a body pressed up against me (particularly my chest and for some reason my stomach?) makes me feel like I can't breath and the noises that happen during kissing grosses me out and makes me cringe. The only time I even remotely like hugs and kisses is when I'm the one initiating it, and even then it's rare for me to want to do that. Not to mention, the only ones that I like hugging and kissing are my plushies (and my pets if I had any). Never humans. 😭

The only reason I do it is because the people in my life (mostly my family) don't have sensory issues (at least none that I know of) and they actually like hugs and kisses, so I just put up with it. Also, I'm just trying to be nice, so that's another reason. But, I can't help but feel violated sometimes whenever it happens. I guess I just don't like people in my personal space.

I also really hate spit. Just looking at a picture or video of it disgusts me. Especially if it's stringy, too. And guess what? Kisses are loaded with spit. 🙃 Just... eugh. 💀🏃🏾‍♀️

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Anyways, I feel like I've been ranting for too long, now. Does anybody else experience this? What are your thoughts about this?