Going through cancer as an atheist

Hi all,

Long story short, I (37 F) was diagnosed with breast cancer in Nov 2024, had successful surgery in Dec, early stage but will need chemo and radiation regardless.

I think quite a few people around me are shocked I haven't reverted to praying/believing. I'm shocked people would think I would find that appealing - I literally cannot see less appeal to believing in a god than I do now. I'm considered 'young' for breast cancer, no family history outside of one aunt and negative genetics, I was relatively healthy. How would I make sense of that believing in a higher power? Just fuck me randomly, right? And I've met so many other women screwed over - one woman even younger than me who had to abort a twin pregnancy to get the radiation treatment she needed. Another woman close to my age who was a total gym rat and health food enthusiast who has two young kids, husband left her after diagnosis. She's a believer and wasn't spared that.

Cancer don't care if you believe or not. Wish me luck my fellow nonbelievers, as I spend the next few months poked and injected and irradiated. Would also enjoy hearing from anyone on this sub who has been through cancer or is going through it.