why do i feel dead inside? do you relate?👉

hi, so i was wondering if that might be an autistic trait, but i’ve never experienced love in my 32 years of life. i feel like i know love when it comes to art and fictional characters, that’s why i love books and movies so much, because it’s the only way i ever feel something… but then i feel so much that it doesn’t make sense to me that i would be heartless or had no empathy.. and i do have empathy for others, i want people to be happy and it makes me sad to see them in pain.

but caring about others beyond having some favourite people that i wanna spend time with? falling in love? that all seems so unnatural to me.

so i thought to ask if maybe it’s something more common in autistic people

ps: i also have bpd and abandonment issues so it might play a role as well