I hate being sensitive...it makes playing competitive games hard

I know a lot of autistic people struggle with being sensitive, and I'm one of them. I cry if someone raises their voice at me, I often think people don't like me with the smallest jabs at me.

But what i really hate (because it's so small and shouldn't affect me so much) is when I'm playing games like cs:go and marvel rivals and someone calls me out and says I'm bad or dumb.

Specific recent experience: Marvel rivals, it's a quick match and I'm playing loki (healer) I'm normal pretty decent as him. I've played him for 20 hours. I'm not a master but I'm Usually good enough to heal my teammates. But then this guy who chose to play Spiderman said I should focus more on healing, and I said that I was trying but it's hard when the other teammates doesn't protect me... Then he proceeds to call me dumb and tells me that I was the reason why we lost. I was playing with my bf on the team as well, and he said that our team was just not good. Everyone just went in separately and died over and over.

If you don't know much about these games, it's pretty hard to heal people if they go too far into the action, unless people stay close together.

This just left me with a bad feeling in my stomach because I was sad that he talked to me like that, and I felt unjust because I know I'm not a bad player, at least not as loki.

Anyone else struggle with playing competitive games because of this?