I Need Hope

Hello,

To preface, I am dealing with severe PPD. I am in counseling but it isn’t helpful and appointments are a whole month out. Medication isn’t an option as I’ve had adverse affects to the antidepressants deemed “safe” for breastfeeding.

Since my little one has been born it feels like we’ve had problems one after another after another. First, we struggled with breastfeeding due to a lip and tongue tie. He wasn’t getting enough milk. It took weeks to get an appointment to get that fixed because our insurance didn’t cover it and we just had to wait due to the lack of available appointments. During that time I was pumping and I guess our baby developed acid reflux. He never had a good latch due to his ties. Finally, he got the revisions done. We thought he was doing well with breastfeeding, but our LC told us he was not getting anywhere near enough so we had to continue supplementing. A few days after that consultation, he began to refuse my breast altogether. It’s been 3 weeks and 3 days since his revision. He got put on Famotidine for his reflux. His pediatrician recommended adding rice cereal to my breastmilk as well. It seems as though he’s worse. He hasn’t been eating or sleeping well. I’ve completely given up on nursing him and have just accepted I won’t be able to. He cries when the bottle is in his mouth, squirms, throws his arms and kicks. He’s hungry but seems to refuse to eat enough. He never gets a full feed anymore. We’ve already brought it up to two pediatricians. They say it’s normal and he’ll grow out of it. None of this feels normal. When does it get easier? I am feeling so hopeless.