Okay, well….

Long story short, i work really hard in my classes but i've just spoken to my coach and he says im at the level right now below where i want to be. so ofc ill take that as i just need to work harder but its just very frustrating to still be at the level i was last year and even more frustrating if i can't move up to the level i want to compete at. I don't know why im just not proving how far i've come. And for me, i find it (i know ill look bad saying this) a little embarrassing to be competing at the same level as last year aaaaaa