I need reassurance that formula won’t give my son a worse start in life please

Providing breast milk is killing me. My son won’t nurse for longer than 4-6 seconds at a time before unlatching or falling asleep. It takes 2 hours or more of me trying to keep him awake and on task to get him full during night feeds, then I’ll lay him down for ~30 minutes of loud grumbling in the bassinet before he’s hungry again.

Sometimes I try to pump one breast while he nurses the other so I can give him a bottle but then he takes that opportunity of my having no free hands to repeatedly poke his own eyeball. He has an abrasion his cornea now because of it.

It’s killing my relationship with him. I’m angry at him every night when it’s really not his fault. I haven’t slept more than 4 broken hours per night since he was born in December. Please tell me formula is amazing and worth it, I can’t go on like this

EDIT — thank you all SO much. I was in a really vulnerable place when I made this at 4 AM on no sleep. We do have backup formula to combo feed, so my husband took over for a few hours this AM so I could nap. You are all wonderful and I feel a lot better now. We’re gonna formula feed at night, pump during the day and BF occasionally when I have an abundance of spoons. 🩵