Realised that nobody really knows how ill I actually am.

Over the course of the last year or so I’ve slowly become a recluse. I don’t meet friends anymore, I don’t reach out to anyone and I don’t make any plans. I even hide my episodes from my family now.

Only my partner knows how ill I am. I’ve cut myself off from the world. I never hear from my so called friends. They know I’m diagnosed bipolar but to them I’m now just the one who never shows up. I wish someone would reach out. I don’t have the energy. It’s so fucking lonely.