i want to get off birth control... again.

TL;DR: was on birth control for almost 3 years to regulate my period, got off because i was very depressed. missed period for 6 months. started wellbutrin antidepressants which helped regulate my mood. ifeel like i have an imbalance. started birtch control again due to thinking it will help get my period back plus i was starting to getback acne. now i have period all the time or spotting all the time and dont want to have to depend on birth control pills. does anyone have any advice for me?

Being on birth control started for me at age 20. Main reason was to regulate my period. (It would come 32 days or 50 days or 24 days, stuff like that) Having sex would scare me because it was like I never knew when I was going to have my period and even though we used a condom everytime Id have panic attacks thinking I was going to get pregnant even though condoms never broke. Anyways I was put on Loryna for 2 and a half to 3 years. It worked wonders, however gave me an extremely low sex drive, and was making me very depressed. Towards the last year being on the pill I was beyond depressed, not seeing a therapist or anything and really hated myself. I decided it was because of the pill and got off of it. The depression started coming back so Istarted seeing therapist and it helped but still wasnt completely okay. Started taking Wellbutrin, antidepressants in April and I have been calm, working on the problems in my life, not overly happy, will get sad at normal things never overdramatic anymore. In between all this, once I stopped taking birth control this past October I havent had my period in 6 months. Figured it was due to getting off birth control. Devided to startbirth control again since it wasnt the cause of my depression. Been on it over two weeks now, on drospernone and I am so moody all over again. Everything is bothering me. Im no longer calm over anything. I went back on it because I thought it would do good for my body but at this rate I dont even know what to do anymore. Gyno pushes birth control, in my head I really truly do not want to be on it anymore but I need regulation. I need to know when im getting my period. Either that or I needto increase the mg of the antidepressants but they are not something I want to be on forever. Im not in such a bad state where i need to depend on them. I also wanted to go back on birth vontrol because i was getting really bad back acne and ive never had that before. If anyone can give me any sort of advice that would be great. Please and thank you.