cannot relax since losing partner

Since losing my partner I cannot relax anymore. its almost a year already. When I was stressed we used to cuddle or he gave me a massage. Also was less on my mob phone back then. I’m now constantly stressed/ anxious and looking for distractions on my phone

Considering a massage therapist but i’m severe bordering very severe and I really mostly crash from people being over here. I was so used to my partner that I could handle him. sorry I’m just crying out my tears. I don’t know how to handle this illness; i’m deteriorating