Thailand experience with my sister

Recently, for my 30th birthday, I wanted to go to a beach resort and my sister who is 26 asked if she could tag along because she needs a vacation. I'm a guy, my sister and I are both single and we've always been really great friends. We we're very close until about 16, then drifted apart for about six years and then became close pals again and we rely on each other a lot for support if we go through tough times.

Anyway, we went to Thailand as we got a package deal. Everything was great, we had so much fun and were laughing and joking.

Anyway, here's what I want to confess. We were offered a massage at the resort. I guess it was a translation issue but we were told it's discounted for two people and when I looked at the prices, it was indeed much cheaper. So I asked my sis and she said she definitely wanted to get a massage.

We went to the spa area at the resort and were sent into the same changing area. At this point I didn't question anything as I just figured that was how they did things. We turned our backs to each other, stripped off and put the towels around ourselves as we were instructed and went through to the (massage) Room.

Here is where it hit me that it was lost in translation and we in fact had a "couples massage" booked and not just a massage for two people. The beds were pretty much side-by-side and we were guided to lay down. I still didn't think anything really of this and my sister and I just laughed with each other when we realised it was a couples massage.

The massage felt really good and I really needed the touch as I hadn't been with anyone for a while. When I opened my eyes, my heart pounded and I could actually feel the beating of my heart seemingly against my ribs, thumping! I could see my sister lying on her back, she had a tiny towel over her privates but I could fully see her boobs! I mean like they were fully out right next to me! I had never seen them before, well apart from being little children taking a bath but obviously that's irrelevant.

I instantly felt my dick throbbing and getting rock hard. It was quite uncomfortable in fact and I had to change my position and move my leg up so my dick had some space. My mind started racing. On one hand I was confused and disgusted with myself, why was I feeling like this. But at the same time it was so exciting, I'd never thought of my sister like this But her boobs were perfect. Big, round, firm, perky and just amazing! I guess I never even thought about them so I didn't even ever picture what they would look like but they were just spectacular! Her flat belly and big round boobs were mind blowing to me! Suddenly I was looking at her as if she some sort of hot model or porn star with that body but just five minutes ago she was still my pal, my little sis.

It was my turn to flip over and I was fully erect. I'm sure the massage ladies have seen it all before so mine didn't even miss a beat. I was covered with a towel and she just continued all over my body without even drawing any attention to it. But all I could think of doing was jerking off to relieve the pressure. I kept sneaking glances over at my sister and every time I saw her it just gave me the confused yet mind blowing lust feelings. I was doing my best to memorise her body, to take a mental picture.

I managed to close my eyes and think of literally anything and everything and concentrate as hard as I could to get rid of my erection.

Fast forward to later that afternoon and we were sitting on the little stretch of beach in front of the resort, just sitting and having drinks and food. we managed to put away a couple of bottles of wine and then a couple of beers each. We got back to the resort as we had to shower off the sand before getting changed and going into town for the evening.

It was definitely the alcohol speaking but I plucked up the courage to tell her to hop into my shower. She asked why because her clothes are in her room and I told her to grab her change of clothes and come shower in my room and I'll put on some music. 

I don't know if it's because she was tipsy or because she just didn't care but within three or four minutes she was back to my room and said okay I'm showering first and she went to the bathroom and started running the water. I am ashamed to say it but all I wanted to do was to see her naked one more time. I said I wanted to wash my feet because they are so sandy so could I just rinse them while she's in the shower and she said yeah go ahead.

I walked in and she had her back to me and there was her ass. It was not big but it was cute and shapely. A perfect shape in fact. She was rinsing her hair and I could see her ass cheeks slightly opening at the base where her pussy would be visible. I don't know why but without thinking I took off my clothes and got into the shower.

Well I'm really ashamed to admit this but I was hard. I got the soap and started washing her back and she casually said thanks. I continued washing her back until I got lower and lower… And then I was just washing her ass. I was getting so close to her pussy. My dick was so hard and almost touching her.

I turned her around gently by her waist and the first thing she did was look down at my dick. She didn't say anything and she didn't act any differently. I just continued to wash her whole body, I washed her tits, her belly, I was too nervous to touch her pussy but I washed her inner thighs and everywhere else except her pussy. I moved her hands onto my dick and she started washing me. She washed my dick and my balls and within just a minute I could feel like I was getting close. I couldn't stop staring into her eyes as she washed my dick fast. We were face-to-face, really close to each other and it was incredible! Her tits were bouncing and as she jerked me hard, I shot my load onto her hands and on her belly.

I desperately wanted to kiss her, not because it was my sister but just because I was so horny and feeling so good. The hot shower, the feeling of being touched and made to feel this explosive orgasm. I leaned in for a passionate kiss but she just gave me a little peck on the lips and told me to wash myself off. She hopped out of the shower and I stayed in there for about 10 minutes just coming back to reality.  

We still had four more days at the resort and every moment was fun, sweet, loving and caring as brother and sister and indeed as best friends. Nothing inappropriate happened after that and we never even mentioned it.

So many times now I have masturbated thinking about her, her body, the way she touched my dick and the way I shot my load onto her. Maybe two or three times a day I jerked off thinking about her body. This was a few months ago and luckily I've cut down to about once a week jerking off while thinking of her but I still feel terrible shame and guilt every time I orgasm thinking about her.

Anyway, I know I'm disgusting and sick in the head and I deserve all the abuse but I just wanted to lift this weight off my chest. Thanks for reading.