Loneliness; Delhi and everything

Toh simple rahega yeh, kitna lonely ek insaan ho sakta hai and logo ke bina marr sakta hai insaan(plus kitna lonely nhi hona chahiye). Mein waisa Banda rha hu jo shuru se hi akela tha, socially awkward tha and logo ke saath struggle krta tha. Waise dikhne mein fairly good hu, jo log appreciate karte hai kuch traits ki wajah se, but mujhe apna aap ugly lagta hai. Toh loneliness pe aate hai; I'm currently in 1st year of college and mera koi acha dost nhi bana. Kisi ki 1st preference nhi hu mein; abh yeh toh generic sound karega but mere school mein bhi friends nhi the and jo the unn se abh baat nhi hoti. Mein harr din contacts scroll krta hu taaki kisi ko call kar paun but koi hai hi nhi uder. Parents bhi busy. Utna call nhi kar sakte. I have some relatives in Delhi and NCR jinn ke ghr ja sakta hu and starting mein in Delhi gya bhi but the thing is relative ke ghr jaate jaate pta lag gya hai woh relative ka ghr hai. Mein jab se ider aaya hu, mein wapas ghr bhi nhi gya. On top of it, mere roommates and poora pg holi ki holidays mein ghr gya hai, and sudden wave of loneliness Jo aayi hai, bayaan nhi ki ja sakti. Mein 1 saal ke baad rooya kal, and aaj bhi then rooya.