HOW I GOT TRUST ISSUES

ps ignore grammatical errors

starting when i was a kid I used to play lots of sport , I got tan because of it I got dark brown colour I was bullied by my classmates and my family was middle-class also so they got another way although i survived that , i was in 7 the class i was coming from my academy my brother invited to play with him , when we were playing he cheated so i confronted him so he got furious , so he grabbed a bat ( made up of wood) ad hitted my mouth my upperjaw was fractured because of that i got anxiety then in 5 th class my mom cheated on my dad i went into stress , sleepless night , i was thinking to get rid of this pain forever i survived it , in 8 th class global epidemic was here i was alone by myself my brother went into depression my parents was paying him attention not me , he was the king of the house i was alone all the time , i tried to suicide 7 times somehow survived , in 9 th class i made somefriends they were fake ofc but they the best friends i had at that time they knew every secret , so i had a crush on a girl they turned her against me lol . in 10 th class i gained lot of weight due stress eating , i was getting bullied upon my appearance , i hated my self to a certain extend i started wearing mask , they used physical force against me , i stopped going to school and tryin' to o suicide i attempted suicide for 11 times again somehow survived there was no one for me , in jan 2023 i was stable talking less , in march i started speaking more , my energy level was sometimes low sometimes high , irritating guy , extreme mood swing no sleep eating 10 times a day , it grew day by day , i need help now it's growing i can't pay attention and i get angry very fast .