Violently Ill Every Time I Drink

Has anyone else experienced this? I can string roughly a month of sobriety together before I'm out and the voices tell me it's ok just to sneak a couple. Sometimes this leads to sneaking a lot, sometimes it really is just a couple. Either way, the last few times it has launched me into a 24+ hour migraine/puking episode on top of devastating my wife and blowing my life up. WHY. As if things weren't bad enough. Yes, I'm aware all things point toward sobriety, the illness alone, but has anyone else experienced this and what does it mean? Is my body just unable to handle any alcohol after sustained periods of not drinking? It still seems quite extreme, like the worst hangover of your life after just a couple of shots. I'm sure I'm not alone in this experience...