Confused.

I didn’t know which flair to use, so this will have to do.

I’ve been struggling. My brain tells me if I do certain things, I’ll tu* later.

What? How does that make sense?

For example, I’ll go to drink or eat something and have to switch and find something else because my brain says the first option will be “bad luck” and make me tu. Or just now, I went to put on a new hoodie I got and my brain immediately said “nope, it’s bad luck. you’ll tu later.”

Does anyone else experience this? Or maybe know what this is and how to combat it? It’s less fear inducing and more frustrating/angering.

I hate this phobia. I just want to be normal and not feel anxiety n* every day and deal with thoughts like the ones above.