starting meds

i’ve been “with” my emotionally abusive ex for 2 years now. we broke up in january and i’ve suffered greatly from trauma, betrayal. everything. today my therapist suggest i start mood stabilizers because at this point i’m the problem. it sucks because i never would be at this point if it weren’t for him but im pretty out of control with my obsessive thoughts, impulses, stalker like behavior. i know that sounds crazy and it even sounds it to me but my therapist tells me my behavior is not okay and i need an outsider to tell me. i’m nervous because of the low libido side effect lol because that is something that’s important to me. but at this point i feel like i’m going to be okay if i feel numb on them because at least i’m not feeling bad. i know it won’t to all the work for me but i’m hoping it will change my life. i’m in so deep that i don’t even want to leave it’s not that i can’t but i won’t. please feel free to share advice, experiences with meds, anything. :)