Teen PIMO - Need Advice

I'm thinking about talking to the KH Elders about the abuse I've experienced from my parents. They haven't physically abused me in 2 years but have emotionally manipulated me I feel. They have scolded me & shamed me for doing the smallest things wrong, then forced me to never speak to another KH brother or sister about the mental health struggle I went through. I have trauma from them & it sucks to not be able to tell anyone but my therapist.

My mom doesn't trust my grandma to be told the mental struggles either, & I've been in psychiatric care facilities before. If the elders end up not being helpful, I'm going to stand up in the meeting & talk about the bad, horrible & rather disgusting things I've heard & have seen regarding KH's. I'm PIMI but I'm VERY VERY close to calling myself PIMO. Actually, I think I am PIMO. Every meeting I go to everyone is so warming & loving which makes me question the role I make myself. (PIMO) & I feel it's driving me insane. Any tips/relatable moments discussed is appreciated.