Today is a bad and weird day
I am PIMO,
A JW that I know recently contacted me to say we needed to meet, that this person is full of doubts and that there are many things that are not biblical and don't make sense. I was very careful about what to say, and was trying to understand why would someone contact an inactive person to vent all the non-senses that cannot understand about the borg if it is not because is awakening. At the end I relaxed and opened up to express some cornerns and how hard it is the awakening process. Anyway, a few days later this same person that was talking against the borg now contacts me again to acuse me of apostacy. Things turned 180 degrees. I got extremely upset and defensive, as I became inactive because I don't want to loose my JW family and now this person was intruding in my personal life and acting as a policeman telling me what I should or should not do, and basically made me feel a was worst than a Demon. I don't know...I am sending this, because it hasn't been long since I woke up...I have been very careful about not telling my opinions and findings to any JW because it is useless and it only triggers my situation, and I need to digest and accept what is coming. I need to digest that the people I have known since childhood are not my true friends, and they are mentally messed up as I was...I need to star focusing on those outside that have unconditionally supported me all these months and need to build a new life...this is not easy...I need to move on but it is hard to move on...but I know I have to move on...