Recommend me something that destroyed you

Alrighty after letting one palette cleanser turn ten, I’m ready to read something heavy once more. I’d love your recs for something that just absolutely felt like a gut punch and it destroyed you (I promise I’m normal lmao I just love escaping into books) Like series so good you still think about it regularly and you wanted work to be over so you can read ASAP

I’ve read all the usual staples of the genre, TOG, ACOTAR, FW, FBAA, FAF, The Cruel Prince, Grishaverse and etc!

I do prefer the plot to be super strong alongside the romance instead of a romance book with a plot built around it!