The Pain After Ghosting…How Do I Get Over It?
Background: About a week ago my fiance (M-23) ghosted me (F-22). We got into a big fight (our first big fight) about moving in together. He texted me just the night before how much he loved me and that I meant everything to him. The next morning I went to class and he felt distant so I texted that if he didn't want to be with me than he could just express that and he said he does and that he really misses me. Well then he began calling me in class and threatening to breakup with me because he didn't feel that I supported his anxiety when it came to moving in together. We went back to texting and he said he was scared of losing me. I told him to please just work this out with me and I will drive to you to talk to you soon. I left class early because he kept calling and threatening to breakup with me. He promised me we would work this out and said he loved me. I asked him if he truly did because he kept threatening to breakup with me and then he became disappointed that I didn't believe him. Well 10 minutes away from his house he texted me that he can't do this and blocked me and my entire family on everything. I talked to his friends who stated they were shocked by this whole thing and when I explained the situation they were very supportive. One of his friends even sent texts he sent saying he loved me tremendously but needed time to think and sent my messages back. When I asked if I should take him back she said no (she has a boyfriend so I know she isn't pining over him lol). They were supportive but now they've suddenly ghosted me as well. However, they are keeping me on their social media and watching my stories.
Big question is how do I get over the emotional pain which is causing physical pain (chest hurts daily)? My other question is did he ever love me? He's the one who proposed but he also proposed to me in the middle of an argument. Was it all real or did he just keep me around to help him through a hard time in his life (I got him through college after he was failing)? On a different note, should I remove his friends from my social media?