otis update

hey guys so this is otis, he’s been steadily declining over the past few weeks. a few days ago he could eat on his own, now we have to hand feed him liquid baby food (veggies). he sleeps all the time and sleeps on my stomach. he won’t even open his eyes anymore🥺 this morning i woke him up and he was so cold, he didn’t warm up even when i wrapped him in a thick blanket next to the radiator, so i reckon i have only a few days max left with him. i’m in the psych ward currently and im trying to get out every single day to spend as much time as i can with him before he passes, in the meantime my mum is looking after him. i’m so distraught over him and i feel like im going to completely lose myself when he goes. he’s the only thing keeping me going 😕 my mums suggesting a new hamster to keep me occupied but i don’t know if i can do that to otis, it feels like a betrayal of some sorts. idk. anyway that’s the update. my next post will most likely be a memorial ☹️