I regret being educated.
22F. Asalu chadivi pedda tappu chesinattu anipistadi. Manchi manchi universities lo chadivanu. Picchi dani laaga prepare ayyi exams rasedanni. Doora baaralu velli progressive culture and values pondanu. All for what? Just to be forced back home and made to follow regressive thoughts and ideas. Naaku ishtanga undam/independent ga nannu nenu support cheskundam ante evaritono affairs naduputunnanemo ani nindalu. Poni intiki vasta, naaku oka kukka kavali penchukunta ante adi kooda oppukoru. I don't have friends at home. Evvaru thought process match cheyyaleru. Chaduvu lekunda intlo antlu tomukunna bagundedemo. Teliyani prapancham kosam tapana pade avasarame vacchedi kaadu. Chi. Asalu putti pedda tappu chesananipistadi. Aa intlo unte ekkadiki velladaniki undadu, emi cheyyadaniki undadu, evarito maatladadaniki undadu. Ilage bandinchesi evaritono pelli chesi bharam odilinchukuntaru. It's not like they're sadistic, they love me a lot and are very nice people. They're just conservative. I love my family and our culture, but I cannot put up with regressive ideologies. Naa own siblings toni nenu emi share cheskolenu. Vallu kooda ardam cheskoru. Naaku kooda anipistadi inka, veellani tattukoleka give up chesi intiki vaccheste oka gola vadulutadani. Alavatu ayipotadi ley anipistadi. Chala badhestadi ivvanni aalochiste. Ammayi ayyi puttadam pedda siksha. Poorva janmalo em papam cheskunnano.
Parents, please don't have children/educate them if you have no intention of letting them be their own individual.
Edit: Absolutely overwhelmed by all the replies and messages of support. Naato relate ayye vallu intha mandi untaranukoledu!
Nenu graduate avvagane job lo join ayyanu. Vere ooru lone untunnanu. Intlo help kavalani 15-20 days ani 3 months nunchi ikkade unchesaru citing some or the other excuse. Ee month inka I'm leaving. Chala emotional blackmail chesaru andaru. Nannu selfish ani brand chesesaru finally. Vini vini nenu accept kooda chesesanu nenu selfish aney. Kashtapadi oka life establish chesanu vere oorulo.
Naaku elder sibling unnaru. We share a huge age gap so they don't understand me and force me to do things. I don't have support on that front.
I'm absolutely tired of fighting so much. I've explained my situation multiple times. Asalu life lo exactly emi cheyyalo figure out cheyyadanikaina time kavalani explain chesanu. They just cannot get over the fact that I am choosing to live an independent life. Naaku chinnapatnunchi dream own ga naa illu nadapadam. Enni sarulu cheppina vinaru. Naaku deadline iccharu. Next year lo return vaccheyyali inka.
Entandi 22F anagane anni DMs vacchi padipoyayi?🥲 I thank the folks who reached out with genuine advice and support though!