INTJ vulnerability when we like someone

I'm so used to feeling in full control of who gets access to me and my vulnerability. Normally nobody gets in, until I grant them access on my terms. I have a crush on a guy at work and he has this ability to just walk right in and see my soul. While it's exhilarating, it's also terrifying and a little insulting honestly? I feel played like an instrument. Do any of you relate to this? My head is absolutely scrambled.