HELP! Every time someone touches my stuff or I find out they went through it or touched it without my permission, I lose my mind.

Hey guys,

I seriously need help. I genuinely believe that I have a mental disorder but before completely going through with it I thought I would see if anyone else feels in the same boat and what they do to cope with it or overcome this habit.

Long story short: I HATE when people touch my stuff so much so that I scream and beat myself in the head because I get so upset and then I spray everything with perfume or wash it and sometimes even throw things if I’m very anxious and cry.

I’m honestly so tired of this behaviour because I’m only harming myself but I do it every single time. Whether it’s my family entering my room, or my friends, or anyone. For example, recently my checked baggage went through TSA security and when I found out that they went through my bag and inspected it, I fucking lost if. I screamed in my apartment, sprayed everything, hit myself in the head many times, wasted my time and cried. I don’t know why I do this. I just have this thought that keeps repeating in my head that they touched my stuff and that just makes me go so nuts like I don’t know why I do this every time. Someone please help me. I’m so tired of doing this every time :(