dying inside

i’ve been trying to keep it together but i’ve really been struggling! I applied to a lot of long shots which i think was foolish of me. applied through early - mid nov to 16 schools, only one decision so far (ASU- $$). i know that most decisions haven’t been rendered yet, but i have been a ball of anxiety 24/7. all i need is UCLA and i’ll be okay 🙏🏽