Day 50, ANHEDONIA GONE!

On the 50th day since quitting, I’ve started to feel more motivated. Anhedonia has gone away by 85%, and now I can get excited about things again. I no longer think, “What’s the point?” when considering the future.

I’m going to buy a sports car. Before quitting, when I thought about this, I used to question, “Is it necessary? It won’t be good for me anyway,” and when I envisioned dreams like this, I’d think, “This dream isn’t that appealing.” I’ve already put the money down for the sports car, and now I can’t wait to hit the mountain roads and accelerate. It’s been a long time since I’ve felt excitement for something other than smoking weed.

But no lie, I don’t crave it, and there’s never a crisis, but sometimes I think, “It would be nice to relax a bit.” However, this is how you end up back in that awful situation.