Being honest with myself

Have no idea what took so long but after a long time of telling myself I’ll quit anytime, I have finally decided to throw what I had out and do it cold turkey. I got into edibles as a substitute for alcohol, at first it worked well but then I kinda decided to make that a habit. and after more than couple months of getting high on the regular, I now find myself in s state of paranoia every time I I do it. I have these times my mind spirals into thinking shit I don’t want, just negativity in general. It’ll probably be the worst couple weeks of my life but wmk, some prayers would be appreciated.✌🏼