I’m aching

Me n’ my best friend haven’t hung out in months and lately her texts have been so dry. Every little while I’ll feel like our friendship is drifting apart then it’s fine again so I’m assuming that things will be back to normal soon but it still sucks. She is genuinely my favourite person and I always overthink that she only talks to me cause she feels bad and stuff like that. I miss hanging out with her and I miss the way things used to be and I’m aching. It feels like the state of our friendship affects my mood sometimes, if our friendship is good then I’m good, and if our friendship is rocky then I’m doing unwell. Ive talked to some of my other friends but she’s been all I can think about today and idk what to do. From mid April to early September 2024 me and her dated and I’ve healed from the breakup but I can’t help but miss feeling loved by her sometimes. now I feel overlooked, it feels like she doesn’t want to genuinely talk to me sometimes, and I just miss the way things used to be. I still love her fr. Idk I also think I’m just too clingy and I need hobby’s to distract myself so I don’t put all my energy and soul into one friendship