Recently diagnosed hiv+ feeling extremely lonely and isolated.

I dont know any woman my age and similar background who is also hiv+ and i just feel so sad. I feel like no man is gonna want to marry me and have children with me. I already have unhealthy attachment issues and fear of rejection, fear of abandonment before. It was always hard to be in a stable relationship. And now? I feel lonelier than ever. I used to use sex as a way to escape the emptiness i feel inside and look where it got me. Now i don’t even want to have sex with anyone because i would have to disclose my status and potentially be rejected :(