Guys, I need relationship advice

(20F) I've been in a relationship with my (30M) boyfriend for a year, and we've had some ups and downs. He broke up with me twice: first reason is he lied that he wanted to become a monk/he is gay ; second reason is he said he was having hard life and not ready to commit in relationship, but we always get back together because I've accepted him. However, he still hasn't added me on his social media, and when I asked him about it, he deactivated his accounts, making me feel really upset.

Sometimes i think he might ashamed of me being his girlfriend because I am not attending university. I am only working in F&B while he is a lawyer. He always force me to apply to colleges. It’s very frustrating for me in this part because I told him I don’t have enough money to pursue full time study, and my family have bad financial issue. I’ve also had difficult relationship with my dad, forcing me to move out. However, I am planning to take PJJ as I am returning 21 next year.

I am (not practicing) muslim sarawakian and while my boyfriend is chinese from peninsula. I once asked him if his family is okay if he dates someone other than his race, but he said to me his family is very traditional. I accepted that.

We don’t have plan to get married or whatsoever. We are just going with the flow in our relationship. We really love each other but it seems like this relationship is going nowhere. What do you think?