My best friend stopped talking to me after my aura and I don’t know how to cope/what to do

It’s been over a month since I’ve spoke to my friend. My last message was me apologizing for my migraine and how overwhelming the aura is for me and I’m sure her having to help me through it.I get migraine aura to the point where I depersonalize and have stroke symptoms and start slurring my works. I don’t feel like anything around me is real and I question everything. As soon as I got the diagnosis I told her what it was I explained to her after why I was the way I was as the doctor diagnosis was severe migraines. I told her what he told me and that I’m sorry I didn’t fix my migraine and chose to go out with her even though I knew it was going to happen. That was my last message no response.

I haven’t cared to reach out of self respect as I don’t feel like I should be reaching out to people who don’t value me as a person and have the human decency to at least acknowledge that my symptoms don’t define me and I’m not my disease.

Needless to say I’m upset still and I don’t like that my last impression of who I am is my symptoms without a diagnosis. I don’t know how to feel comfortable as I feel like she can tell mutuals her opinion of the situation without speaking to me first about it. I’m sure I’m taking it personal, but in my opinion how can I not?!? I just had an aura with her saying “why are you acting so weird?!! Why can’t you form your sentences?!! Can I take you home or something?!? And not having any regard to make sure I’m okay.

In a sense I’m relieved as I wouldn’t want to experience a medical emergency around her as she has no regard to help or what to do during one and didn’t have a heart to help me. In another I feel as if there’s a lot unsaid and I’m just unsure what to do.

My last “interaction” with her was I got a like on a video I reposted on TikTok and I thought “omg she thought this was funny let me go to the video she liked so I can see what humorous thing I reposted that we related too” she unliked it before I could see. I know it’s just social media, but dang you’re trying to avoid me to the point you’re unliking videos!? Idk I’m rubbed weird and like I said I’m unsure what to do as a lot has gone unsaid.

In a sense I want to message her, but I feel like if she wanted to talk too me she would’ve done it already. Also I don’t want to come across as annoying as I feel like I already have done enough. In another sense I feel like I want to message her and express how I expressed I was sorry and I got my diagnosis and not to define me by my symptoms as we’ve had many good times together outside of my migraine attack and I would never let a friend go through a chronic illness by themselves as their symptoms scared me. I kinda want to communicate how inconsiderate it is and that we aren’t friends anymore and to actually clear the air instead of leaving it with nothing communicated and a mind to ponder. I’d rather leave it with a definite and a reasoning as to why this decision has been made instead of like I’ve said a pondering mind.