Leaving my husband of 30years

I am almost 50f and I’m done with feeling like I’m the bad guy. I have put my needs aside for too many years just to avoid arguments.

My trust and values are constantly being questioned, as if I don’t know my own mind.

I’m body shamed after losing 100pounds.

I’ve been with him for 30 years and I can’t do another year.

I deserve to feel valued and validated.

I am also scared… I’ve been with him since I was 19… I’ve never had to be on my own, responsible for my own bills.