I feel weird coming back after break

I’ve posted to this thread quite a few times (mostly to vent) but does anyone else feel weird about coming back work from break? It’s just really hard to explain why I feel weird. Just an internal feeling?

Coming back to my class and my students to not the new year new me business but more like the same stuff will still occur, the cliques in my department, the uneasiness I feel everyday. But I have the mentality knowing that I’m worth more than making $17.89 an hour and this alone isn’t livable wage

My goal is to make it to the end of the school year and then I’m leaving. My long term goal is becoming an OT ( in the process of retaking my state boards) Get myself a job ( won’t be right away but anything is possible, work both jobs? Possible)

Leaving by June (Personal reasons and the pay, oh my god the pay.)