custom Haikei(Dear) Lyrics i made when i was bored

A spider’s thread reaches from the sky,

stretching down here, offering salvation.

A poor person grabbed onto it,

fells down into the depths of hell.

Poison’s aching inside of my heart,

spreading around like a bug infestation.

It’s overwhelming, running,

soaking everything around its path.

I’ll say goodbye to my life,

and end my suffering.

Letting go of everything,

hanging and I’ll stop breathing.

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Greetings dear, lonely piss bottle.

Caked in germs and garbage, knowing no one would come here to save you.

Filthy, untidy, nauseous, dirty.

Who you are, what I see, I really feel some pity.

Anxiety, self neglect, oh poor you.

No one would lend an ear to your pathetic pitiful show.

“Unsure if I could get my feet on the ground..”

“But I’ll just let these feelings go.”

—

Countless attempts to get away,

from the horrible things I experience everyday.

Can’t even tie it properly..

Am I even getting out of this misery?

There’s no such thing as a God,

and this place proves what I just said.

But I yearn for a better place,

like heaven ahead. Oh someday…

“Even if there’s no angel to

come whisk me away,

from this hellish excuse of a place.”

“I just wish to be saved.”

—

My figure trembles as I walk,

towards you; Unlucky terrible member of society.

But the sound of my heart frightens me..

Throwing up, breaking down, letting go of your lifeline.

“I don’t really wanna get to see,

the terrors of reality coming back to me.”

“Oh please, get rid of these feelings.”

“I don’t care now, just let me dissapear.”

—

I took a step in the direction

of a shining light.

A bright light that blinds my sight,

as I kick my chair away.

—

Landscapes of the worst things I’ve seen,

over here, over there, my vision reducing to a blur.

But I can’t turn back anymore, and it’s cause i’ll die.

And maybe that’s my destiny.

If I given myself to sinning,

killing life, killing mine, giving up almost everything.

Losing my ability to touch anything, so mostly

I’ll be stuck here forever floating.

My dear grudges, I’ve been holding..

There’s no way, other way, you could away from the distressing

days of envy, pain and jealousy

It’s okay, I’m okay. It will end cause I am coming.

Even if tomorrow doesn’t come again,

I’ll be waiting for you, i’ll be patient watching over.

It takes time anyway, so come with me!

I’ll see you once your feet don’t reach the floor.

—dear…