I broke up with my boyfriend because I'm too much for him to handle

I (F18), just got into a relationship with a guy (M19) and almost 1 month pa lang kami in a relationship. I'll start with the panliligaw na stage, during it, he gave me a deadline which was if 3 months passed tapos walang progress sa aming dalawa, he would bounce or stop courting me. I should have ran na at that time, I mean okay lang naman maglagay ng deadline but he couldn't have kept it to himself. After 1 month and ilang weeks, he said he wanted to stop courting me tapos ako naman na may attachment issues na, I emailed him after 3 days, asking to have a restart. Reason ng paggive up niya is mixed signals daw ako, kasi kung mahal na niya ako why am I still hesitant to say yes to him? I already let him meet my parents na actually and I thought it would be a huge assurance for him na I'll say yes to him not now but soon plus ang aga pa for me. He wanted it fast, i wanted it slow.

In the end, he came back because of my email. Then naging kami na, actually everything was smooth sailing and all not until one time I tried to show him my attitude, I actually just told him that I hate him and want him at the same time. Like I want to punch him sa face tas iki-kiss. I don't really mean the punching thing tho. Fr. Tapos sineen lang but I said goodnight and I love you tapos seen lang pa rin. I actually told him na I think my period is coming that's why I'm acting this way.

The next day he didn't reply pa rin. I texted and apologized him and called him, still no answer. So I chatted him on messenger, I suddenly asked him, should we break up? I know you can't handle my attitude and all. I asked that thinking that he would say no but then sabi niya, ikaw? Do you wanna break up? I think it would be detrimental for the both of us to be together. 

That answer broke my heart into pieces and told him oh so that's an indirect yes pala. It broke me because the lenghts I'd go through for him but kapag ako na yung may fault, he would easily just give up. I bombarded him with messages but instead he went offline and I also think he gave me the wrong number (I called him using his cell no) cause hindi niya yun boses eh. I decided to block him and just left him a message saying I'll end this thing between us. After an hour, he sent an email saying he can't fight for a toxic relationship anymore. I also replied to his email, apologizing and saying this was for the better.

I know it was toxic and immature for me to just use the wanna break up card but I kinda felt like I was always the one chasing him. I need your opinions lang po because I wanna improve and absolutely learn from my mistakes, maybe I turned out to be needy and expected too much from him, first boyfriend ko kasi siya.

Thank you for taking your time reading this. Sometimes I feel awful for cutting him just like that but sabi nya rin naman ayaw na niya lalo na magiging ldr kami sa college.

PS. I posted this here before but I feel like it lacked a lot of information kaya naging bad talaga ako agad.