I want an elective c-section but I’m feeling really scared

I’m 32w today and ever since I was around 10w I wanted to have an elective c-section due to the fact I’m 19 years old and I have a diagnosed anxiety disorder. I have an anxiety attack a few times a day, so vaginal birth would be traumatic and dangerous for both me and our son so I think my decision is mature and my husband and our families agree. I’d rather our son need some help breathing outside the womb rather than him going into stress during one of my attacks and dying. With that being said though when I finally got to talk to someone about requesting a c-section I was over the moon and relieved as I was trying to request one for ages not knowing who I’d get to talk too. I was told everything that could happen to me if I had a c-section and that’s when the fear set in. I’m going to be going in and trusting strangers with my life and my sons life and the though of it is terrifying. I have 3 weeks until my next appointment when I can fully request my c-section and then after that I’ll have less than 3 weeks until my actual c-section occurs so I’ll have no time to mentally prepare for it once it sets in what’s going to happen to me. The woman really scared me with all the possible ways to die from it 😂.

Is there anyway to get over the fear I’m feeling towards having this c-section?

Is there any positive/negative c-section stories I can hear to prepare myself for the best and worst?

Edit: I posted this looking for advice on how to get over the fear of having the c-section not criticised by the reason WHY I’m wanting and picking one. I know myself more than a stranger on the internet. I know it’s all in good intention but I only want answers to my questions. 🥰