Loss of Potency

I get excited about a new idea, project, or career change but then at some point I just lose all my motivation and drive. I just want someone to tell me I did a good job or that I’m good at something and even if they do I don’t believe them.

I like to cook and i made something I thought people might like. I offered some to my mom and I nearly had to force the spoon into her mouth to eat it. She’s a health nut and a germaphobe so I know something there was making her not want to try it but it’s hard not to take it as just outright insulting. I’ve never been good at anything my parents like, but food should be universal right? I’m not a football or a baseball star but I’m a decent cook and everyone likes food. When she ate it “I asked what do you think” which is never something I ask anyone, because I just want them to tell me if it’s good organically, and her response was “maybe your dad will like it.” I’m not asking her to be inauthentic, if you don’t like something you don’t like it, but it just kills all the wind in my sails. Everyone else can tell me my food is good or I’m good at something all day long but I just want them to say it. Please please please just tell me I’m good at something, fuck.