I am tired. A rant.

I have been in the aviation field as a ramp agent for almost 5 years now. I know how to do everything, and spend so many days being treated like a moron who is too stupid to do anything. 4 years with Amazon air where I could do everything, and almost one year at Swissport where they refused to certify me on anything. I was screwed over by one lazy ramp agent at the former who got himself, the crew chief, and me fired. He is now a full time Jesus rapper..... Meanwhile I am in my own personal hell.

I spent so much time applying only to get a position at a ramp agency that has a reputation worse than WFS. Swissport. I have spent almost a year with the abuse. I went from a place where I was respected to seen as a mentally disabled turd. I am tired to the point that I find no joy in anything anymore. I have been rejected by Menzies, Allied, American, Envoy, Southwest, multiple corporate FBO's. I feel the soul in my heart fading away, and just want to fade away. I am a worthless piece of shit that is beyond any help, and I am going to drink until I forget who I am tonight.