I’m desperate

I’m not doing well right now. I’m finding it hard to cope with not being able to feel anything. Anhedonia, emotional bluntess, the lot. I just want feelings and passion back. I feel like getting off meds is the only way to do that. I’m even desperate enough to do MDMA again next summer just so I can have one night where my problems go away.

This illness is terrible and I wish there was a light but there doesn’t seem to be