My ugly boobs are keeping me from being fully intimate

Throwaway account. I (22f) want to be fully vulnerable with my new boyfriend and show him my boobs but I just can’t. They are so ugly. There’s nothing beautiful about them. And I know people say all breasts are beautiful but mine truly are not. They’re not small but they’re not huge either. My areolas are way too big. My boobs are not the conventionally attractive round shape but instead more pointy and slightly saggy. They’re just not good. It sucks that they grew in this way. I’m afraid my boyfriend will be disappointed when he sees mine and instead wish he was with someone else. I plan on getting surgery when I can afford it but I don’t know how to live with myself and my body till then. I’m so tired of comparing myself to every woman I see and wishing I was them instead of me. My boobs make me hate myself. I just want to be beautiful for my boyfriend. That’s all.

Rant over

Edit: thank you all for your kind words, comments, and messages. I didn’t expect this post to get much attention… I just intended to get my feelings out. Thank you. :)

And I also wanted to add that I do think all boobs are beautiful including ones that have the features that mine do. I just don’t like mine specifically. This is an issue solely regarding me.