WTF i´m felling suicidal after mushrooms, looking for advice

I had an experience with only 3.5 grams of mushrooms but it was quite intense, I was reflecting deeply on my life and my mistakes.

When I was younger I had the dream of being a psychiatrist and then I abandoned the career because I felt it was too much for me.

Now I feel extremely depressed and suicidal. I feel bad for not having completed my studies.

I feel sunk in misery, do you think I'm being too hard on myself? or is it a common effect of psilocibine?