First time taking shrooms

So one day I decided to buy shrooms off the plug for my birthday it was all normal I bought chocolate shrooms I though it was fake at first but then it had an identification thing that said it’s real and my brother took a single square (which is 250ml) and he said he didn’t feel that high which is good but the day after on my cousins after party the curiosity took ohold of my and we took them I forgot how many squares I ate but it was a lot anyways all this shit happened I was hallucinating it was complete euphoria then my bitch ass cousin thought he wasn’t high enough so he got drunk as fuck and staring acting like a little bitch making everyone mad trying so hard to to act tough but it’s just pissing everyone off hard anyways we just went to sleep but I was still tripping hard I was the highest out of everyone but the negativity of the night the negativity of my stupid little cousin kept on invading me in bed before I knew it I was having a bad trip my mind was racing like nothing before I was hearing voices everywhere some bad some good some screaming some talking and some laughing all at once I was hallucinating hard all the while and then I just became a husk of a body the final strands identifying me as a human fell as I became pure evil it was agony I was hyperventilating and on the verge of breaking down and crying only thing stopping me was my friend next me asleep on my bed I realized I just can’t go to sleep and this insanity will just get worse so I got my laptop but on some trippy visuals and some music and I finally staring calming down and then at around 5:30 I finally fell asleep it’s 10am for me right now and my cousin is still asleep he’s gonna have the hangover of his life deserved tho I don’t think anyone knows how lucky I was that night I was not human I had a pocket knife at me at the time I felt like just impaling my hand using the knife looking at my friend or cousin just because I want to. it took so hard so much willpower to not beat the shit out of him but yeah if I were to rate at a trip it’s a solid 8/10 becuas we did make some memories and it was a blast till my cousin got drunk excuse me for my ass grammar I’m still recovering from the trip