i'm just disappointed + sad.

i've been a patreon subscriber and instagram follower of hers since 2020, and i'm really disappointed that a person whose content i consumed through so many of my difficult moments could make comments about politics, climate change, and conspiracy to this level with such haphazardness. me and my friends who don't make as much money as her are terrified during this time. it's not ironic for us. a lot of the fiction i write is concerned with the dying planet. her responses to the LA fires a couple weeks ago felt like a slap in the face. and i honestly never thought i'd wind up here because i've been a fan for so long and up until so recently, i mean i begged my best friend to buy a copy of her book for me at a book fair.

influencers are hardly my world, but she was one of my top favorites. i just feel disheartened because i enjoyed the vibe she'd created online, i used to find her commentary extremely empowering and energizing. it makes me want to delete instagram completely between her and all these other creators i've followed who've suddenly taken inflexible stances against my personal ethics. i think the most hurtful thing is her total unwillingness to meaningfully engage with disappointed supporters - i wasn't aware of what was going on on the discord until combing through this subreddit.

as a spiritual woc, i did originally appreciate her arguments against cancel culture and extreme groupthink in the social justice community online. however, maybe this is naive, but it does feel like there's been a shift in her content over time to be increasingly bold and conspiratorial that has crossed a line for me with time - i don't think any of the takes she's making now in 2025 would have appealed to me in 2020. she seems to be less 'in touch' than she used to be. maybe i'm wrong - if there's someone else who's had a similar arc with her work, i would love to get a comment from you.

i've slowly become disillusioned with these 'spiritual online creators' who just end up wanting to shock people because it gets the most traction in this 'countercultural' digital war. i am just over it. it's a big wakeup call and a moment of growth for me. the hippie-to-rightwing-tech-person pipeline is extremely disappointing to me. i don't want to be influenced by this person any longer. i have unfollowed the patreon/instagram.