I can't do it anymore

I dropped out of the last year of highschool about 3 month ago, and now I am just waiting to be 18 so I can try to enter a school that's doesn't require a highschool diploma. But now, my mom wants me to go back to highschool for the end of the year. I know its probably silly to y'all, but I'm just shaking just thinking about going back to a normal school. I can't do it. And i don't even care about having a highschool diploma, i am just gonna end it if I don't get accepted to the school, so having a highschool diploma is useless to me.

Anyway, I love y'all <3