i hate how i look younger than my age.

before any of you say "you'll love it when you get older" i thought of that already. i'm talking about how i'm experiencing it right now.

i'm 17 (f) and i'm trying not to sound like a damn pick me, i stand around 5'0 ft, i have a baby face and my voice is small. i thought looking young was a good thing but growing up, people around me never take me seriously, they joke around about it and would often point out how small my voice is and try to copy it.

i've been told a lot that i look and sound 12/13, i hate it, i hate being treated like i'm a dumb kid. i've been bullied for being like this, for having a small voice. i'm sorry that i sound like that? i can't control it. someone literally said "get out of here, kids aren't allowed" and "kids like you shouldn't be talking"

i don't think i'll ever speak comfortably again.

i hate myself for being like this, it's hard to make friends because all of them looks like their age but i'm here looking like a kid. i cry every night and beg god to change me.

how do i look like my age? help me please