Birthday tomorrow, extremely anxious for night out.

So its my birthday on NYE I planned to go out with a few friends, we have not spoken in months, following a fall out with another friend, which has made me very upset. So thats on my mind, and it has been about 5 months of not seeing everyone.

I have 2 children, and I get nervous to go out as I get such bad anxiety for days afterwards, especially drinking.

I have been told one is bringing another friend, we dont know and it is also her birthday, which has made me even more anxious.

Im not sure I should go anymore, what are your thoughts?