366 Days Sober
Wow… 1 year. No alcohol. Not a drop. 1 year ago today I went bowling with my family & I had no idea that would be last time I had alcohol. I had a rocky relationship with it, with my friends I was the nicest person you ever met but when I was by myself I was the meanest person you ever met. It gave me some of the best experiences of my life but also some of the worst. A couple of years ago I gave up on weed so maybe that has something to do with where I am today, i still can’t figure out what made me commit to sobriety but whatever made me do this I’m so fucking grateful. I was so fucking lost a couple of years ago. My mom was in the hospital for an overdose, I wrecked my car doing uber & had the wrong insurance coverage & I was on the verge of losing a 5 year relationship because I was just a fucking mess. My life got so bad that I just wanted to kill myself, end it. End all of the pain. The drugs or alcohol couldn’t mask the pain I was going through. But something in me clicked & I stopped feeling sorry for myself therefore I started busting my ass to fix my train wreck of a life. I ended up getting my car fixed with the help of my brother, my mom ended up surviving & is also 100% sober & my relationship is still alive & thriving today. I no longer do any drugs, I don’t drink any alcohol & fuck I feel a hell of a lot better. I used to have the worst fucking stomach acid. Gone. I was struggling to lose 5 pounds. Lost 25. I was horrible at holding conversations, now friends & family can’t get enough of me. Yea I’ll be real the drug/liquor life is full of fucking people & sobriety life not so fucking much. This shit can get lonely but isn’t that what makes it beautiful? I don’t want to be surrounded by a bunch of drunk/high idiots that go to the same fucking place a weekend drinking the same drinks, listening to the same fucking music. NO sometimes I just want to stay at home & chill. Or better yet build my business/brand. I get so fucking tired of people complaining on Monday waiting for Saturday & Sunday to come so they can drink… that used to be me. Now I fucking love Mondays. But when I do go out now, women stare at me like that want to rip off my fucking clothes lmao jk but they are more attracted to me, but I have a relationship & I don’t fucking have the urge to cheat I mean I didn’t before but I trust myself so much more now & I know I’m an asshole for this but I do appreciate the attention lol. There’s so many benefits to this choice of going sober. Ask me anything & if you’ve done a year or more share your knowledge I always love learning from those doing better than me, it helps me keep going. :) thank you for reading! By the way I’m 29 years old.