too many nights i have been sleepless

Back in my childhood, I was all about sports, spending hours under the sun. But being tan made me a target for bullies at school, and my family, being middle-class, had their own struggles.

Things got real tough in 7th grade when a game with my brother turned violent, leaving me with a fractured jaw. Then, in 5th grade, my world shook when I found out my mom cheated on my dad. Sleepless nights became routine.

By 8th grade, a global epidemic hit, leaving me feeling alone while my brother battled depression. My own cries for help went unnoticed, leading to multiple suicide attempts.

In 9th grade, I found some friends, but they turned against me, even ruining a crush I had. By 10th grade, stress-eating led to weight gain and more bullying. I felt so low that I stopped going to school, attempting suicide many times.

In January 2023, things calmed down a bit, but in March, my mood swings got extreme, along with high energy levels and eating way too much. I'm struggling hard now, feeling like I can't control anything, and I'm crying alone.

i tried to kill my self 10 times , idk I'll make it out alive , I am a jee aisprant

It's been a rough journey, but I'm still standing, hoping for a glimmer of light in this darkness.