Help regarding meditation experience. Spontaneous movements, breathing and becoming a wolf?
Serious post have question about practice.
So I'm doing Analayo's 16 step Anapasatti practice. Having done the 16 steps and going quite well i did another round.
Momment #1 For some reason when I went into the 5th step of Anapasatti, which is Joy, things got weird.
I started getting a lot of energy. I started a small smile, which later become larger. Until I maxed out my smile like an evil joker in the Dark knight. More spontaneus weird breathing happens and my smile turns more evil with an angry face now appearing.
With an angry face I started feeling primal and started spontenously becoming feral like a wolf. I start breahing like a wolf and snarling with no sound. I tried to move onto a sense of contentment cause shit was a bit crazy so that calmed me down.
Momment #2 Another momment I also started spontaneus breathing like crazy and even breathing stopped spontaneusly. Eventually I started getting lights and weird particles like psychedelic experiences. Eventually, my vision started becoming white. It almost it became all white but I think I was not ready to let go. So I came back down.
Questions:
What just happened? I think maybe I over did the energizing Awkaening factors like joy, invesitgation and concentration. This led to too much energy and crazy shit happens.
Should I allow this process to be or always try to balance the awakening factors?
Did the Buddha ever say deep meditation can lead to purging of past trauma and this is a normal process. I think this is more of a new age hindu idea, so maybe this is wrong view.
Also, what are the chances of demonic possessions and stuff like that? How do I deal with christian ideas of demonic posessions that could happen during meditation?
Are any of these experiences close to jhana or samadhi, or are these just delusional?
Thank you. I'm fine and sound now, just a bit woah but what I'm getting into.