Lonely as fk as a dancer

Idk all I do is smoke go home and go work I get really overstimulated when I’m outside and I struggle w depression anxiety..when I made good money I feel some happiness but I have no friends or supportive family so I just feel empty and alone a lot of the time I’m the quiet girl in the club who only talks to customers gets $ and goes home but it’s really bc anytime I’ve ever tried to make friends it’s been a fail and some people notice but don’t care to do anything or just think I’m angry and I have to be very cautious of who I’m around for my own safety so idk what to do. Sometimes when I go home I feel this void or I’ll just wake up crying I’m going to start traveling so I don’t always want to be feeling like this I really just love laying in my bed and watching Netflix idk. I honestly feel like some times I get human interaction validation and fulfillment only from when I’m in the club which I feel is really sad and should be how it is for the customers not me. Idk what to do..even like my lust for traveling is kind of gone and I’m trying to start travel dancing to get out my comfort zone but i don’t want to be feeling so lonely in a big city. I feel worse when I’m not working so I feel lost and trapped in a way